Hiatus Interruptus

"Pause" is an interesting word.

In life, when you want a moment for catching up, or to bring some control back into any given situation, you call "Time Out" and magically, you get to take a breather, refocus, and start afresh. This "time out" mentality gets used a lot in life. Well, in most instances, and when used it is always for a positive. "Pause" was further made important when we started using it for simple conveniences. Watching the World Series and really need to piss? Pause. Thirsty and need another beer? Pause. Hungry and want to run out to the store real quick? Pause.

Then "Pause" got used for the economy. Now we don't have recessions, we have "pauses". But never has pause been used as a negative. I'd like to point out that I am currently in a pause. Have been for several years. I didn't realize it before now, and looking back, if I had I think things would be different in my life. Pausing was something I did to make changes I thought were necessary. Now, I am not so sure, and I am certain that others out there are also feeling the same way as I, feeling like they'd rather have the thing keep moving, and play catch-up rather than a pause that doesn't truly feel like a pause much as it feels like someone's holding me by the shirt while I am trying to run.

Today we have a mentality that "Pause" is the way to fix things in our lives when it all goes Khe Sahn, and I can't help but think that our parents had moments in their lives, particularily when I was younger I can remember my mother's moment, and pausing wasn't the way you dealt with it back then. You saw you were losing, and instead of some "Time out" you just threw in your gloves and left the field.

Fuck pause. I'll go play somewhere else where I can start this fucker back over at 0.